Bucket List

Sometimes I am afraid

That my transness makes me

Undesirable

That my body

Living outside the checkboxes of bureaucracy

Crafts a barrier unbreakable

To beautiful connections

I carry this fear within the deep recesses

Of my muscles, bones and tissue

Forgotten til I meet

A person who seems perfect

On the fragile frozen surface

To them I am

Interesting

Something strange and new

A cool experience added

Alongside “pet a bear” and “shave your hair”

On the bucket list written for people like you

The ice shatters

And I sink into the depths

Cold water shock shifting my insides

And stealing my breath

Again and again and again I fall

In the hopes that someone will know me

Hear me

See me

Transness and all